52.14 Motherhood is..... Learning

Life is full of learning.  Hopefully we as adults strive to learn something new everyday.  I know I do, and that helps to not only fill up my knowledge tank but makes me feel alive.  I'm constantly teasing Matthew that he is full of useless knowledge.... but I will say, every time he opens his mouth I learn something new.

I think Motherhood is very similar.  I learn something new EVERY day!!  This comes in all sorts of ways... Sometimes its as easy as Jackson opening his mouth or doing something, perhaps this new bit of knowledge comes from another mom sharing wisdom, or some times its as easy as a bit of self reflecting.

With the birth of Benjamin coming tomorrow, I have been looking back on my last 19 months of being a momma and reflecting on my journey of learning!  I can honestly say that I have learned not only a ton about being a mom, but about myself, the kind of mom I strive to be and my son.  I can desire and teach certain things for Jackson all day long, but he is his own person and sometimes you just have to let go and see what he figures out.

I have tried harder these last few weeks and if I'm to be totally honest more these last few days, to really let Jackson be the intelligent, independent young man he's growing into.  Its been a battle.... with only a short period of time left, I've wanted to hold on more.  Smother him with more love, kisses and hugs.  Make him feel my love... LOL!!  Even typing that I know how emotional that sounds.  But its the truth and I am okay with allowing my silly ideas to hit the screen.

I know as parents our "job", or "goal" or even "mission" in life is to teach our children, but I think there is another side to this... We are to sit and learn as well.  Our children are innocent little beings with no life experience outside of us, so this makes them more adventurous, more trusting and more at ease.  I think I can take my son's advice and see life through his eyes a bit more.

I have LOVED being just Jackson's mommy these last 19 months and I know that he has taught me as much as I have taught him.  We have been a fun team of 3... But I also know that we are going to be an even better team of 4!!

I am proud of the mommy I have become and the lessons I have learned.  I have many, many people to thank for those lessons.  But I also know that I am about to start a new chapter in life and learn more... being a mommy of 2 boys should be interesting.

Today, I thank Jackson for teaching me about being a mommy and for rolling with the punches!  You are amazing son and I love you more than words.

Exploring his surroundings